23.11.2009~today...haiz

today...
1 of my fren...
suddenly said SHUT UP to me...
i nt kecil hati or watever it is...
juz feel hurt...
that time i feel so lonely u noe?
juz feel like wanna argue wif some1...
but...

i did it at a wrg time...
oni can blame myself...
nowadays...
i feel cold, lonely and many...

Is that no1 can understand my feeling?
ya...
oni can blame that i too stpd...
so emo...
so childish and so...
SELFISH!

i hate myself!
I REALLY REALLY REALLY HATE MYSELF!!!
why i cant juz like you all...
gt so many frens...
so many hearts towards to you!?

when i feel lonely...
i juz take my hp and see who can sms wif me...
but when i open the phone book...
i oni realised...
there is no1 can chat wif me...
even my best fren oso...
hate me too...

well...
wat can i do?
i too selfish...^^

so oo...
dun think that wan me be ur gf oo...
that oni will occur in ur dream...
and yet...
that's for forever...^^

22.11.2009~

hmm...
sometimes sad can come later, but happy can come now...
this sentence is he told me 1...

but 4 me...
is yes...
sometimes you do wrg sth, dun feel sad or moody...
take a breath do it again no matter how hard is it...^^
I'll support!

ytd night...
think too much, make me think bck him...
haiz...

now moody...
I knew I made a wrg choice...
I'm trying to get out from his dark world...
and I'm trying and trying!
muz support!

kor~
muz rmb...
"the skill that you lost already, it's ok...but your mood lost already, it's hard to find back."
"sometimes have to know how to relax and how to think"
"dont give yourself so much pressure"
"you're not gas! cant be compressed!"
"MEI SUPPORT YOUR CHOICE!"

and it is for forever!
GAMBATEH!

16.11.2009~so weird

hmm...
nowadays keep on got the same feeling.
the feeling very weird,
it's just like I'm scare about something.

but I just cant feel what I'm scare of.
It's so weird, continue many days already.
can some one tell me
What I scare about?

It just like...
something bad will happen to my family and friends.
What's that?
I'm scare that I'll lose my friends?
no way!
my friends are just around me...

haiz...
got any idea just tell me.
thanks~

15.11.2009~发现自己了

我，
终于从我的梦幻世界里醒过来了
到现在才发现
原来的自己，根本就跟一只。。。
不对！
没有我的存在。
好好好孤单哦！
haiz
一无是处的我真的不想在撑下去了。
我再也不想为你而活了！

昨天，
我竟然在那prefect Hi-Tea里的日本餐厅
消除完你给我的简讯！
我真的很逊！
也不知要写什么了

我看了那男的部落格。
他，
很怕失去。。。
不对！！！
要起床啊！
不能再想了。

啊~！
我的心脏又痛了！
最近，都一直隐隐灼痛。
大概是不要我再想了吧！
那我该不该。。。
像零一样？
顺从罢了？

不想再写了。
我已经哭了！

09.11.2009~my kor kor birthday

my real kor kor birthday today leh...
hehe...
no present 4 him...
muahaha...
so sian la nowadays...

hmm...
started to write novel...
still thinking how to start...
still no title...
still no mou tou sui...

I'm thinking~
I'm thinking~
and I'm thinking~

aiyaya...
haha...
I'll gambateh de...
XD

erm...
that's all 4 today...
baiii baiii

05.11.2009~disappointed

tdy teacher gif bck many exam papers...
when i saw it...
i very disappointed...
BM-61%! how can i get C?
BI-75%!luckily...
BC-72%!!!WTF!!!2 more marks teacher oso dun gif...
Maths-81%...ok lo...
Science-81%!!!by luck!?
Sejarah-64%!!!!!!! 1 more marks!!! canot tambah anymore...folio is full marks already!!!
WHAT THE HELL!!!!
Geografi-54!!!!!!!!!!!!WHAT THE HELL IS THAT GOING ON!!!????luckily let me do again my folio...
really very DISAPPOINTED!!!
when i get my BM exam paper...
1st time i saw it 54%...
WHAT!?
D again!?
no way!!!
thn i told myself...i canot cry...
muz tahan...dun my friends worry bout me!
unaware!!!
jing, kim and melanie they all keep asking me...
"why so quiet?dun like that la..."
thn i tak boleh tahan...i tercry it out...
i'm nt sengaja 1...
i oso dunwan...
i really din think that i can get so many C!!!
cant accept!!!
sob,sob...
haiz...
nvm la...
只是想不到。。。
我，何瑞馨竟然是个废物!!!
是个烂苹果!!!
不对!比烂苹果还要烂!!!

02.11.2009~erm...

hmm...
actually nth to write de la...
but...
Lynn...can see my words nw?
difficult to change la...
keep simply put number...
muahaha...
so lucky...[s.s]=.=
hehe...
paiseh la...nth to write ma...have to ss awhile...
so...
who going to...
hari kebaktian?
hmmm???
sian lo...mayb i have to go...sob,sob...(T.T)
but...samuel invite me at facebook...
haiz...have to send maybe to him oni...
wakakaka...
tdy...
haiz...
dunwan to say la...
ltr you all say i syok sendiri or perasan...
>.<
erm...
THAT's ALL 4 today la...
oh ya!
the tai pu sam...
她竟然在facebook写BMW'sGuRlFriend...
OMG!!!
BMW 看到她都掉头走啦...
还要等她嚒...
不知羞耻!!!
BMW都在不下你啦...
收皮啦!!!(cantonese)

1.11.2009~haiz...

still exam la...
sian la...
kena force to study...
hmm...
still gt 28 days...
haha...
know what's that?

duno thn nvm lo...
but at that day i sure gonna to kill those duno what's date punya org...
muahaha...

(became happier)
(变开朗了)